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I never expected reading or hearing this from a close friend of mine. I've been busy with work and I did not have enough time to chat around and next thing I know I would know this kind of message from her. I know she has these mood swings but never in my entire life that she would say this:

"Funny si mon nasa manila, pero ano work niya? Di naman art related, ako naman im not in for the fame money or watver, basta ma express ko lang art ko. happy na ako. Art for me is not a means of earning a living, art for me is a way of living. Actually simple lang naman gusto ko, Im a very laid back na person. Tapos im tired chasing dreams in manila, tingnan mo sa mga classmates ko nasa manila are they happy with what they are doing there? Alam mo kaya isip ninyo nagchange ako, kasi totoo nagchange ako. Iba ako sa manila."

I have to admit that after a couple years of working in my field of arts, I got stressed and I felt that I wasn't growing. If I did not have any family to support, I would gladly stay in my field and strive with the low pay and go up year by year. Since my parents are unemployed and my mother only has a small business of accessories and we're still looking for ways to make it bigger, its really hard and very challenging.

I haven't been hanging out with my friends lately, since half of my salary would always go to groceries, bills and the rest for my needs. Needs meaning, money for transportation and buying food. That's just it!

Even though I'm working in a call center and my salary is on 15K its not enough for keeping a family of 4 alive. To be honest, I'm already working in E-Telecare for 8 months and I haven't saved a dime! Good thing that there is a quarterly bonus and that's what I'm waiting so that I could finish paying my credit card and I would be credit free.

I'm writing this not because I'm angry, I'm just disappointed that a close friend of mine would say that. I could go back to my field anytime I want to but I don't want to, not yet. There are times that I long for photography and there are times that I would think of grabbing a pencil and draw. As I said, I still don't want to. I still do abstract painting from time to time and as much as possible I don't want to get addicted to arts.

Arts was my second choice, I wanted to take architecture but there are reasons why I had to take Fine Arts. I just studied it for the sake to graduate with a college degree. There are time I have to admit that Im fond of arts but I just don't want to take that path right now.

Im happy with my work even if its not related to my studies. I'm happy because I'm able to help my family by paying the bills and sharing a part of putting food on the table.

Everyone in the office is supportive and they would find ways to make the office a happier and fun environment. Every 3 months there is a bonus and it would depend on how your performances or stats are. Everyone wants and helps you strive to be better and get promoted. There's no crab mentally.

These are the reason why I'm staying with E-Telecare. The account I'm with is great and everyone is supportive. Why would leave such a great place?
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The best movie I've seen this year! Definitely a favorite!
Current Mood:
bouncy bouncy
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After weeks of training I finally got my first paycheck and guess what I did aside from paying my credit card bill and grocery? I went to the dentist had my yellow stained teeth removed and I love it! Well, if you look closely at my teeth now, you would still see a bit of yellowish but not like before! So I'm not conscious with my teeth anymore and I could smile all I want, not worrying what other people would say!

For years, I have always encountered people saying, "What's that on your teeth?" or "Hey you got something on your teeth!" It was frustrating really and thank goodness its gone!
After weeks of training I finally got my first paycheck and guess what I did aside from paying my credit card bill and grocery? I went to the dentist had my yellow stained teeth removed and I love it! Well, if you look closely at my teeth now, you would still see a bit of yellowish but not like before! So I'm not conscious with my teeth anymore and I could smile all I want, not worrying what other people would say!

For years, I have always encountered people saying, "What's that on your teeth?" or "Hey you got something on your teeth!" It was frustrating really and thank goodness its gone!
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You Are 80% Extrovert, 20% Introvert

You are as outgoing as they come
The life of the party, you're friends with everyone
You're a people person, and you are quite the entertainer
You love being around a crowd and acting spontaneously
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I've been really busy and stressed out with work that I miss having the time of my life. I always end up having no savings especially when I'm paying for my credit card and of course I try to reward myself ever now and then like having a hair cut, hair spa or facial. If I save some money I'm really going to get a full body spa at Lets Face It, The Spa or Hands to Heaven. I really need to get a reward for myself since they way they treat me at the office. Over working the employee like hell! I also need to go back to the dentist and get my teeth cleaned and get a pasta. I really want to get rid of the yellow teeth I have, its really irritating especially with the reactions of people like "You got something on your teeth!" or "Do you smoke too much? Look at you teeth!". For crying it loud when that tooth grew, it already had that yellow stain! That stain was due to the over dose of dextrose when I was hospitalized a when I was a kid. That's what the dentist said.

I also want to save some money so that I could get new clothes, underwear and accessories. I'm stuck with old clothes and I don't like using clothes over and over again in two weeks time.

+ My REWARDS to come... +

Facial cleaning

Body Massage / Body Spa




New Contact Lenses
Current Mood:
restless restless
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Pick the MONTH that you were born in & put it on as TITLE when you post this on your blog. Confirm or deny ;)

JANUARY - Stubborn. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Never looks at people's flaws or weaknesses. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tense. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Loving and loyal. Loves children. Has great social abilities. Money cautious, can budget successfully.

FEBRUARY - Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy.. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH - Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decor. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL - Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY - Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE - Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite. Has lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitates, tends to put things off.. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Makes friends easily. Shows character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Easily bored. Fussy and stubborn. Seldom shows emotions.Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious.

JULY - Fun to be with. Secretive. Sometimes, difficult to understand. Quiet unless excited or tense. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation for hard work. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly, but not always approachable. Emotionally temperamental. Moody and easily hurt. Witty. Not mean or revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and illogical things. Sensitive and forms friendships carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Broods about the past and misses old friends. Quiet, homey person.. Has difficulty making new friends. Prone to having dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST - Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream.
Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER - Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Stubborn. Quiet. Uncomfortable if have to talk to a group. Calm. Sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Secretive. Loves
sports and leisure. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships.

OCTOBER - Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Sexy. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making new friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Day dreamer. Loyal. Opinionated. Does not care what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance, Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Honest, does not pretend. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER - Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to keep big secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough! . Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions.

DECEMBER - Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short-tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

~ slightly true hehe ~
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There you go
giving your heart back to own
you should wait around to see if they care
But go ahead and see
it will be one of your worst fears to be
Gave your heart away
not much left to say
and apparently it seems to me
You wasted all your time
on a situation that should have been clear to you
So now you know
so betrayed the bitter ache
that you wish would go away
I guess you know there's a price to pay
for the trust
you've given so easily away
But now I guess you'll see what it means to be heartbroken


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An innocent child,
A confused mother,
A decision not finalized.

Will you continue that life?
Or would you ruin it?

Lord, guide every person,
Guide every mother,
Guide every mother to be
To make the right decision...

"This is a CHILD,
Current Mood:
frustrated frustrated
Current Music:
Each Day With You - Nyoy Volante
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